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By now all of you should know that I do not rely solely on one method of getting what I want. I draw from all resources, draining them dry, and hurtling to my own destruction. There was another person I’d leeched off to try and get closer to Guy, his best friend.

Stupid, trust me I’m aware of my own foolishness, but of course the level of my obsession didn’t lend itself to rationality or sensibility. I was too far gone to bother with trivial matters like preserving what little dignity I had. Of course the total annihilation of the crumbs of dignity I did have less wasn’t entirely fruitful, nor did it ever fully ride itself out. This is because Guy’s best friend (let’s call him Dude for our purposes) was the complete and total opposite of Guy to the point of the pair of them being referred to as Midnight and Sunshine. Midnight was Guy (not my idea) and Dude was Sunshine. Now the laws of physics say that opposites attract but also that likes repel.

Dude was horrible, rude and a capitalist, yes, I just said capitalist. Now I won’t give you the exact details of the first conversation I ever had but suffice to say, it was not pleasent. There was a huge amount of antagonism between us that not even my obsession with Guy could overcome. My intense like of Guy was equalled by my intense dislike of Dude. So much so that he kept a page with all the insults I’d ever called him (what can I say, I’m quite creative). The pair of them really had me tangled in knots within my mind.

Because I ended up not hating Dude that much and though there was animosity from both sides I did try to make friends. Every attempt by me to be nice was thwarted, particularly by his habit of dragging that list of insults and reminding my of my initial harshness, Which served to only further increase the content of that list. At some point I got fed up of this continuous sparring and stopped trying to make an effort to be nice, instead opting for indifference. But the thing is, it’s sometimes such a release to be able to freely and openly hate somebody.